Дил розларим сизга армугон!
Дилсора Фозилова
Dilsora Fozilova





6/20/2008 2:30:32 PM
Probably you would laugh at me then

We were at the river’s edge, sitting side by side
Telling stories and laughing,
I had some things to tell you, but felt afraid,
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then.

When it was my turn, I told the bedtime stories,
You didn’t know, they were my sweet dreams,
You listened and said "You are the best story teller"
But if I really tell you, you might not take me seriously,
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then

We had no secrets; our friendship was so pure,
You knew me as a simple girl from the village
But you couldn’t see my heart’s secret storms,
I didn’t want you to find me wild and to criticize me,
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then.

You didn’t know, I was feeling the pain of my nation,
I was thinking "God created me for a reason"
I was promising myself "I won’t live just because I was born"
If I said those things, you might not understand;
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then.

I found my true love only in the "Prince stories"
And I found true feelings rare in this world,
That’s why my world didn’t fit into that world,
If I opened my soul to you, you might find me extreme,
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then.

If I said: "I’ll get across the oceans,"
If I said: "I’ll write the books, already written in my mind"
If I said: "I won’t be afraid to chase my dreams,"
That was my future, but I suspected,
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then.

One day questions cried in your eyes,
Your eyes couldn’t believe what they were seeing,
You said "I thought we are the best of friends,
And our hearts were open to each-other”, and I said
"Yes, we are, but I was afraid"
I thought, probably you would laugh at me then.

Today I am saying the things I should’ve said beside the river,
You are hearing them now, as they’ve become real,
And I have some things to tell you today,
But I won’t... forgive me?! If you heard them,
I am thinking, certainly you would laugh at me now.